So excited! ART.

 I got a preview peek at my cover art and I am SO EXCITED.  Jordan (Jordan Walker; at Jordan Walker Art) is doing an amazing job. 

His sketches of my alien species are just amazing, too. Really bring them alive. 

Can't wait to share them!

2023 Roundup

I DO NOT UNDERSTAND year-end roundups written in November or December. Dude, you've got DAYS left. You could meet some of those goals! Give yourself the time!

Not that I actually completed any goals in the last waning days of 2023, mind you. I hate reading everyone else's round-ups before I'm willing to start mine.

It doesn't help that I had one primary goal this year that I thought it was perfectly reachable. It was not. The way things are going it might not happen in 2024. SIGH.

So. What I *did* accomplish in 2023:

WRITING

- "Finished" a revision, sent the manuscript to an editor, got her feedback, incorporated her feedback and that of others into the manuscript, and got the new revision  half done. Sent the first half of the book to a trusted reader. 

- Created an LLC, created and set up its website, got several social media accounts set up.

- signed a contract with a cover artist and approved cover sketches; also approved character sketches for interior art.

- Joined SFWA as an associate member

- took a few one-day or half-day classes to keep my motivation up and push my skills

- co-led a weekly short-story crit group all year (handed off the reins to a new chair this month). Created a spreadsheet of all the stories members had sold since the beginning of the pandemic and got their rewards mailed to them. Drafted a code of conduct.

FANDOM

-- attended Norwescon, Miscon, and the Nebulas (online) 

HOBBIES / SELFCARE

- Performed in one recital, one NATS competition, three choir performances and a few smaller sings.

- regular vocal practice

 - Practiced French daily and added Spanish intermittently.

- Maintained PT for various injuries from January through about ... August, when the shift in weather and pet illnesses sapped my motivation. 

- got several projects of a physical nature completed in the yard this summer and was able to do them thanks to the PT I'd been doing.

- caught several mood spirals during the year and was able to stabilize myself and pull back out of them without losing much time. Gave myself some grace in November and December during and after the loss of two aged pets.

- Fantastic Canadian vacation (Banff and Jasper National Parks are amazing); a number of glorious weekend and one-day events with friends and my partner: plays, concerts, or just relaxing. 

ORGANIZATION

- got my taxes to my accountant in February (a massive, massive personal win I'd like to repeat in 2024)

-  got all my short stories filed alphabetically! Got several storage areas gutted and cleared and reorganized! Packed up Halloween 2022 in April 2023!  *covers eyes. Yes, I'm serious* I had help, and I needed it.

SERVICE

- Provided transport to appts and grocery runs for a friend who no longer drives

- produced a weekly newsletter for the choir I sing with during the singing season until this fall, when I handed that off to someone new. 

Huh. I actually did some stuff this year.

That all sounds a lot better than it FELT when I started this roundup compilation yesterday, I'll tell you that. Now I need to find a way to track things that's more consistent and works better for me. The "X words written" doesn't work for revision, and I've never found a metric that does, which is part of why revision feels like such a slog. That and I made decisions slowly, painfully. But. That's for another day. 2023, you are in the can. 2024, you're shiny and new. May I expect only as much of you as you can provide.

Write! A! Ton! er... Write-A-Thon!

 Been busy, and that hasn't translated into writing more on the blog. Need to start doing that again...

BUT I also need to write more short stories. 

So... I'm taking part in Clarion West's Write-a-thon this summer. Check it out!

https://clarionwest.app.neoncrm.com/campaign.jsp?campaign=264&fundraiser=9252&

End of 2022 roundup

 I am a traditionalist in a few ways; Solstice/Christmas decorations should wait until after Thanksgiving, and end-of-year posts should wait until the actual end of the year. Or later. Tonight I got this one drafted, for once, before the New Year's started. Whoo.

This has been a crappy year for a lot of people, a crappy decade in fact. It wasn't a great year for me. So this is not a boastful post, merely an accounting-for-myself. Because otherwise I'll assume I did nothing and got nothing done. I have one of THOSE brains. 

Didn't meet a single December goal. Can't say as I met many of my annual goals this year, but to be fair my annual goals this year were pretty fuzzy, and my stupid hip injury was stupid and interfered. Greatly. I neglected to track one month entirely (February 2022, where did you go?) But this year could have been much, much worse; I contracted Covid in December, and had such a mild case I only caught it because I tested due to a potential exposure.  

But. This is what I *did* do. 

WRITING 

--Finally hit my stride with a revision process that worked. 

--I took an insane manuscript that involved multiple events happening over several days and crammed that sucker into one afternoon. Still proud of that.

-- Got a manuscript to an editor (who bounced it back with a "where's the middle," but I GOT A DRAFT TO HER I WAS PROUD OF, dammit.)

-- LOTS of world building and beating my head on the ground around filling in the middle; not finished.

-- 1 short story sale, which should be SFWA qualifying once it's published in 2023

-- Around 13 short stories drafted, a number during the Clarion fundraiser

-- three (this will be four) blog posts.

-- entered NYC midnight scriptwriter's competition on a lark, and ended up making it to the second round.

-- Encountered several epiphanies, including the simplicity-of-introduction-of-complicated-worlds rule.

-- Took at least one class, on short story titles

BUSINESS OF WRITING

-Started the process of self-publishing:

    contracted with an editor, sensitivity readers and hired an artist. 

     Checked into resources with SFWA and IPBA.

-- created a publishing plan (we won't discuss where I am on it)

READING

--Read 17 books (one graphic novel in french, 13 novels, two nonfiction)

-- Started and didn't finish at least four additional novels

LANGUAGE STUDY

--365 days of french (at 1014-day streak) 

-- About a dozen lessons shy of finishing Intermediate French 1

VOCAL

--Learned/practiced 10 songs for me, 24 for choir (some were reviews)

-- four masked concerts, two missed

-- monthly outdoor sings I organized

-- regular vocal practice

--excellent progress on chest/throat full voice, increased range in both directions

EVENTS/SERVICE/ETC

--Tried to be a supportive friend as folks needed one

-- helped lead weekly critique group over zoom

-- regular (usually phone) meetings of a second crit group, with occasional in-person confabs

--create weekly newsletter for choir for two seasons

--one supportive flash mob

--Three masked, in-person cons, one online

--helped at several political postcard events

-- lovely birthday at the coast

HOUSE/LIFE

--Tried bullet journaling with mixed success.

--Started PT for hip injury that ... changed some priorities

--Did some philanthropy

--Started sewing a dress

--Played with watercolors a few times this year. Appear to be very afraid of making mistakes.

-- Got my will, end-of-life planning and advanced directive sorted. (I'm fine, it's just been on my to-do list forever and Covid losses kind of drove home the need to get things updated).

-- Finally got some solid medical treatment for one chronically ill cat, who slowly bounced back to full strength; did not lose the elderly cat I expected to die this year.

--Lightened possessions: went through office, closet, kitchen, living room, office (three times) 

-- Added some useful furniture, including some grown-up chairs, and got help moving things around the house so rooms are more useful.

Probably missing some important things, might edit to add them in later, but this feels pretty solid at 11:30 p.m. Dec. 31.

May 2023 be a better year for all of us.

 

Wanna Be in a Story of Mine?

 Doing the Clarion Write-a-thon again this year, having some fun and some frustration with it. 

It's been a busy summer with some competing priorities. My planned six stories have morphed into a short stories and work on the novel manuscript. I did finish a revision pass, which was huge and made me very happy. But also, juggling is not my strong suit and has left me feeling a bit like I'm churning in circles.

So. An incentive!

Donate $10 - $25 to Clarion's Write-A-Thon (link here:  https://secure.qgiv.com/event/clarionwestwriteathon/account/1298108/) and I'll cameo you in a short story in my space opera-esque universe. (Not an ongoing character, but a walk-on.) You can even ask to be a specific species (I have several, below) or for something outrageous to do in the story, and if I can, I'll work it in!

This is less about me raising money and more about making me actually write words, to be honest. But it's for a cool cause; the money helps support Clarion's six-week training for genre writers from around the country and the world.

Existing species, all sentient:

Spacer: Humans 1,000-years from Earth, collective culture adjusting to no longer living on a colony ship.

Peqe: Imagine a peacock crest made of axolotl-like filaments on the shoulders of a muscular, bipedal, furred dinosaur with a jaw full of black teeth the length of your arm and retractable talons. Uh, and they're matriarchal. Prefer to stay on their home planet where they know they are superior and not one will tell them otherwise. Shockingly small population, rigid class system, new religion with widespread adoption.

Phren: Egalitarian, polyamorous community-minded people who look stunningly like the peqe, only without crests. Neither species appreciates the comparison. The Phren share their planet with:

Wjorx: the most terrifying creature in the solar system; jungle-dwelling and rarely seen but apparently two to three times the height of a phren with fangs the length of a human leg. They'll dine on a phren from time to time, which does not seem to upset the phren as much as one would expect.

Modeel: cuttlefish-like spacefaring creatures inside a fantastic robotic shell. Bioluminescent discharge is both protective and emotive. Very into mining and space-faring trade, with an equally strong faction at home that is becoming increasingly violently anti-pollution.

Larsivians: Crocodilian, bipedal, with a powerful ridged tail that might take off your head if you say the wrong thing to the wrong person. Larsivians worship many religions, have many cities and villages, hold many philosophies, range from laid-back and semi-feral to mob bosses to hustling business types. They're known for their poetry, emotion-forward language, and ability to argue six sides of a single argument. Most populous creature in Se Solar System, with the possible exception of...

Aupoin. Grizzly-sized tardigrades, for lack of a better description. Live in underground colonies on nearly all the planets. Very service-oriented and apparently insular; known for their root-weaving art.

Gruide: Heron-esque, only flock-based like geese. Least space-faring of the lot and the least interested in anything off planet, but required to be part of the system's government. Resent the heck out of it, especially when it becomes clear the Peqe have in fact hunted them for meat in the past.

Kertueon: Hive-based creatures, reminiscent of locusts and praying mantis, but larger than humans. Utterly terrifying to most humans, yet startlingly civil.

There are also non-sentient creatures on all of the planets, and I haven't fully worked out the ecosystem on a few of them and need bulk some of that out a bit, so if you have a critter you just wanna be, ask.

BTW, I have ARTWORK of some of the species coming and I am SO STOKED ABOUT IT. It's amazing!

Finding A Revision Process That Fits

 Quick note to talk about my revision process. Hopefully without screwing up the fact that it's finally working right now.

So I'm currently working on a tightly-timed, half-the-book-takes-place-in-an-afternoon, multi-POV manuscript. It hurt my brain soooo hard putting it together last fall, but right now I love it. But figuring out how to revise it was killing me this spring. Just .. how to organize it, how to manage my own workflow, how to make progress and not rearrange deck chairs.

I started back up a bit ago and I'm at 15K, on page 55, and it's rolling like silk. What did I do right, eventually?

So I set this manuscript aside and re-read it in March. I made notes and marked it up like an editor would, all in the word processing program so I could make READABLE comments. (I've done the paper notes. I can't read them after 30 days).

I was floundering a bit after that. Multi-POV books can be confusing. "Where and how to start" was breaking my brain.

I made a document I titled "outline" because I knew I was going to need to move some things around, and I simplified the existing structure with one graf for each scene. I played with it, followed character arcs, pointed out plot holes to myself, and worked on the timeline.

Once I had a handle on how the existing structure needed to change, I created a new document I called "outline as revised" and started copying simplified grafs over in the new arrangement, only including short simple notes about alterations. I kept most of the editing notes in the original manuscript. 

The outline document is four pages for a 240-page draft (which will grow).

Then I created a new rewrite document, and started copying scenes into it as I revised them. So: starting with scene one (well, scene two because scene one got cut), I copied that text into the new file, dealt with all the revision notes from the re-read, and made changes. Then I marked that scene done on my outline and moved the to the next one.

Some sections I've just cut and rewritten because it was easier; and I have a new scene I'll need to write when I sit down tomorrow. 

Had to walk away from the revision for a week for a trip not long after I started this. When I got back, I read what I had so far, fine-tuned it, added more description (I'm always shorting that) and caught a few errors, and then moved to the next scene in the outline. 

My Very Ambitious goal was eight scenes a week, and if the last two days are any indication, I'll be able to hit that. I'm... a little boggled. Revision has always been a bear for me, but this process has taken nearly all of the decision-making (which ALWAYS bogs me down) out of the equation by doing it in advance. And it simplifies the essential tasks enough that I can keep things in my head while I'm working. 

Knocking on wood; I'd like to get this to the editor early!

Three books and some plants; what's keeping you going?

 Everybody's tired, and on edge, worn thin and in some cases worn down until they're sick (more often than not, *again*).  It's winter. Here in the PNW, the wet side anyway, we're getting glimpses of spring that help ease that a sense of overwhelm despite freezing cold nights and heavy frosts. Buds bursting open early on the camellias. Snowdrops blooming in the yard. Daphne fragrance wafting by the porch. Seed catalogs arriving in the mail. The latter tempt me, now matter how limited the summer sunshine I have available to me. We have many neighboring trees -- great for summer shade, not so great for vegetable gardening. 

I should be writing (that's the title of a cool podcast by Mur Lafferty, btw). I'm still having trouble -- made it through the worst of my writers' block (what if I get it my representation wrong? What if I screw up? What if people hate the far-future culture I create?) and have hit block two, which more simply: where do I start? 

That has an easier answer: butt in chair, fingers on keyboard. That's not the where I meant, but it is the where that will get progress done.

So of course I'm starting with a blog post -- accountability!  Sigh. But it's better than doom-scrolling Facebook and Twitter, which I've been doing excessively of late. 

Lots of daydreams lately as well, which is interesting. Daydreams and conversations with others is how I process things emotionally. So there's a lot of that going on, that maybe has to happen before I can address the writing with a clear head. NOT putting the writing off. I'm just... the two short pieces I have managed in the last month have been flat and missing a lot.  Yeah, they're first drafts and they're supposed to be shitty? But when I write something thinking, "yeah, I want to address x and y," and I leave X and Y on the table and they're nowhere in the text it's clear I'm either avoiding something, need a TON more practice, or am working on Z instead. Or maybe all three. 

So there's that rats' nest. 

And then there's *waves hand vaguely at the morass that is ludicrously politicized community care, i.e., "my freedom from a piece of fabric over my nose is more important than babies, vulnerable elders or cancer patients," the potential hostilities with Russia, and friends coping with various health ailments including Covid* and just life.

At least there's Wordle. And Le Mot. And Lewdle. 

And June's Journeys, and Duolingo, and Sudoku. 

I might be indulging in escapism a bit too much.

That said, I did manage to finish three disparate books this month!! OMG, I can read again! So I'm writing about them: Law's Guide to Nature Drawing and Journaling, Joe Malik's Dragon's Trail, and Karen Lord's Redemption in Indigo. (Hey, I did say disparate). 

Karen Lord's award-winning Redemption in Indigo reads like a complicated, braided fairy tale with a moral message, yet it is so much, much more. It addresses duty in ways that make me comfortable and ways that make me squirm, it brushes the unknowable time travel question of "if I fix this, how will it change the future," and it shows us time and again a woman being her best self--and that being enough even when she doesn't always think so. That final message is one that left me with deep satisfaction. The storyteller framing was both unique and deeply enjoyable; the slow reveal of the unknown character kept me hooked. So many people have written so much more eloquent reviews of this great book that I feel odd raving about it; go read some of the great discussions at the link above. I'd recommend it to just about anyone who likes fantasy and definitely to anyone who loves fairy tales and oral storytelling. You'll be unlikely to have read anything like this before. I hope to read more of her work soon. 

I'd recommend Joe Malik's Dragon's Trail to any fencer, sword-and-armor-nut, service person, equestrian or fantasy fan who loves medieval-style portal fantasy. I'll (mildly) spoiler it by saying that I was ready to kick his shins hard, twice, but there is no "fridging" and the motivational trauma is largely the protagonist's, not a woman's. I know some women won't read books that do either, and avoiding those tropes is important to me as well, so I mention it because there are moments that raised my eyebrows, but he swerves. That said, this is pretty much a guy's book. There are (literal) strong woman characters who the protag admires (and sometimes lusts after), but we are never in a woman's viewpoint, just the viewpoint of a man with a strong libido who respects women as well as physical and emotional stamina.  I set it down several times, finally laying it down for a month about halfway through because I was having trouble connecting (and reading, but that's not Malik's fault; see state of the universe, above.). When I picked it back up this month I finished it in two evenings. Once things fall into place it does just flow. Dragon's Trail is billed as Book One in the Outworlders series and came out in 2016. Book two apparently .... well, it's a long story but it had to be approved by the Pentagon (no shit) and they redacted a lot. So he's re-writing. Yeah, I don't understand either, but those of you in the military might.

I read Law's Guide to Nature Drawing and Journaling cover to cover over our New Year's vacation, and it's a resource I'll be dipping back into over and over because there's too much there to absorb at once. There are at least two concise pages on just about anything you can think of involving rapid drafting and painting; specific how-tos for various critters, leaves and landscapes, and use and selection of art materials. The focus is on outdoor sketching and watercolor, but there's information on gouache and ink as well, and finishing tips for longer-duration studio work or working from memory or photographs. For a beginning artist, it's a useful, example-laden compilation of techniques and tips for the swift-capture-of-what's-in-front-of-you as well as just basic drawing help. 

There. That's pretty much the state of my brain: escapism and art. Your turn; what's keeping you doing in the Winter of 2022?